transmuting shame, anger, & jealousy

Yesterday I was felt the heaviness of emotion and energy and all the things reach it's peak.

It started Sunday evening. I started feeling out of it, low, not myself.

It was more than the normal weirdness we all sometimes feel. The feeling of just being... off.

This was deeper, heavier.

It didn't want to be ignored.

But it could be until I finished watching the newest episode of House of the Dragon Sunday night lol

So Monday I said, "Lex, we are not sitting in this feeling. I'm transmuting this, loving this, so that I can move through."

What better way than working in my Akashic field?

I am not someone that learns/likes one thing and then sticks to that for forever. As a Mani-Gen, Gemini, etc. I like to learn all the things, get great at them and then have them to use when they most align and are most needed.

So I chose to use a couple of my tools.

I muscle tested for my emotions, pulled some oracle cards, and then used that knowledge to do a shamanic healing.

When I was feeling the heaviness, I couldn't really name it. I couldn't sense clearly if it was sadness or melancholy, worry or fear. It was just deep and intense.

But as we know when working through emotions or during any healing/clearing, we have to name it or see the truth in order to shift.

I found a handy dandy chart of body systems (heart, lungs, sexual organs, etc.) and accompanying emotions and got to testing myself.

First searching for the answers to, what is this I am feeling? Where is my body holding it?

Focusing on the heaviness I was feeling and muscle testing for the most primary emotions that were making up the sum.

I found shame in my womb, anger in my liver, and jealousy in my womb.

Very human! No surprise there lol but I had more to determine.

With this knowledge (and a little confusion) I took to the Akashic Records and worked within my Akashic field to ask questions and figure out how to see clearer the truth of these emotions and what they were saying.

Upon entering, I was welcomed by my community and my team and immediately started crying in joy. Yes, in joy!

I felt that their arrival to help with whatever I was holding was a big event. Absolutely huge in my evolution and healing.

I felt their support. Immense and incredible, it's one of my hopes that I can help you feel this same power with your spiritual team.

They flew with me, yes flew (Dragons have their perks:)), and we entered a space where the next steps would take place.

*Remember that releasing control of HOW the healing takes place and the order of events is necessary so that you can create a partnership with your team for the healing. Trust they know how to guide and how to work with you to create the best path forward.*

Then I went asking questions.

What is this shame related to? Why is it coming up now? What is it influencing or getting in the way of? What does this anger need to resolve? What is the anger protecting me from? What am I feeling jealousy about? What part of me believes I won't get XYZ and creates the jealousy?

And on and on...

With each question I was shown visuals of the answer as well as told the answer. Some was stuff I already knew, some was new to me and helped connect dots.

It was freeing to move through it. Forgiveness and love led the way through.

I felt SO much better. So much clearer. So much more trusting and free and lighter than before I had started.

When I felt done, I muscle tested again to determine if those emotions were transmuted and moved through. If my body was holding them any longer, and if there were any more that needed attention. With that clarity I thanked my guides and exited.

I am always incredibly grateful that I worked on building trust with myself and my intuition to be able to move and heal in this way, with these tools. It's something that has precious value and luckily also something that anyone can learn.

I share this with you to encourage you! If you are feeling the desire to trust in your intuition and your souls knowledge I want you to know it is always available. I recommend turning to the knowledge of yourSelf because that will always be where your power resides.

There is a beauty in your unique gifts and your knowledge that is set for YOU to utilize and to also help you help others.

It's what I utilize in my sessions, all of my combined knowledge and gifts coming together to support you and help you on your path to remembering yourself.

You have the power! If you need a little help seeing it or would like more support as you learn, talk to me about one on one guidance or let's go into your Akashic field.